................ a m e r i c a n p o e t
October 26, 2002 + 4:55 pm
so fuck you emotions
so yeah, im alone again when im not supposed to be. he said he missed me, and then put off seeing me fro a few hours to see one his buddies. he got him to ask me iff i would let them have alone time before we all get together next week because he was afraid to piss me off i guess. but im not pissed off. im determined not to give a shit anymore.
October 24, 2002 + 12:05 am
(o.O)
do you ever get really paranoid when you dont understand something said in your presence?
October 19, 2002 + 10:33 pm
wish
i know exactly why having that slimy agent hand him a card and tell him he had interesting face bugged me.
im jealous. i wish i was that fucking pretty. i wish i was that lucky.
im insecure. i dont want him to leave me because he realizes that he can probably do better. i failed where hes getting an open door.
i just wanna be happy. i wanna be happy, and pretty, and successful. but i cant seem to have them all.
October 19, 2002 + 3:40 pm
i do not like this one bit
being a small time designer here on dland, i find it quite unnerving when i find that people who have been rightfully accused multiple times of theft have opened up new design sites. i especially find it disturbing that they have more layouts than i do, when i started my site before them. it makes me think that they are still stealing. am i such a bad person for constantly combing through their layouts, looking for one thats been ripped off me or one of my fellow designers? or am i really just very paranoid?
October 19, 2002 + 1:17 am
kevi and me
Cinnamon Girl: this is just all my opinion, mind you
kevi: ur sis u cant be wrong o.o
Cinnamon Girl: lol.. >.<
Cinnamon Girl: well, i am god... lol
